arg.

there is one thing that i absolutely hate. public speaking. hate it with a passion. always have, always will. you might think this is kind of a random subject at this time of night but it's not. because of this i will not sleep tonight. at all. instead i will be thinking of every possible thing that could go wrong during my talk tomorrow in sacrament. to make matters worse i've known about it longer then most. i was asked probably back in january. i was dreading and trying everything i could to get out of it. i even tried to get out of it by going to my cousins homecoming in st. george in the morning. nope. we are staying here and going to hay hay's homecoming, which i am also being a part of. i do love the hoffmans dearly, but i really hate that they have a lot of friends and family that all love hayden. i drove past their house tonight to see probably 25 people sitting around the camp fire. that's not even an 1/8 of the people that are going to be there tomorrow. dang it. oh well though, i guess all i can do is stand up there, read my talk very quickly (did you catch the word read, i won't be looking up, not even to see the lee's making funny faces), then sit down and enjoy the rest of the meeting and elder hoffmans remarks.
wish me luck!